I’ve been on HRT for two years, why do I still look like a man, why do I still look like this, why is my dystphoria worse than ever. Why do I hate myself so much. Why haven’t I’ve been loved and snuggled. Im just so sad with everything honestly can’t sleep.
I thought you were a cis woman tbh. Saw the image before I read the title.
Look, I’m gonna be real with you. It’s not that you don’t look like a woman, you just think that you’re ugly. You need to compliment and appreciate that woman in the mirror, even if she doesn’t fit your beauty standards. Like would you call another woman ugly or tell a transwoman she looks like a man? No. So don’t do that towards yourself. Easier said than done but worth the effort.
Being lonely and touch-starved is a real thing, and there’s no magic solution for that. Having pets can help, if you’re in a situation to get one. I’d also recommend some body-focused meditative and physical activities like yoga or tai-chi. It helps center yourself into your body and be aware of your own presence (which yeah, can increase the dysmorphia, but see above paragraph,) which can help reduce how overwhelming that loneliness and touch-starvation can be.