Your comment about Deadwood is resonating hard with me. Very well articulated, thank you.

I hated mushrroms my whole childhood. Ate magic mushrooms when I was about 19, and they changed my opinion of mushrroms in general. Like I suddenly appreciated their earthy, woody, umami beauty.

I like the way you think.

Yeah, it’s wild how much denial we’re in about this as a society. Neurological damage was widespread. I personally contracted Covid twice (that I know about) and had noticable difficulty with memory and keeping my train of thought. Something that I never had problems with previously. I think for a lot of people, the difference might not be that noticeable, and therefor is being ignored. I was a hypervigilant stress knot all my life. So now I just have even more anxiety because I can’t remember the entire grocery list in my head anymore.

Seems like you got the intended consequence. If you want to be honest and your partner can’t handle that honesty, maybe it is better to keep looking. I have a very hard time maintaining lies to continue relationships, and as a result I have very few, but incredibly high-quality friends.

I can see that being a core memory. And it would certainly keep me from falling asleep.

Blinded by the Light by Manfred Mann’s Earth Band

I don’t know why I hate it so much but any time it comes on the radio I am bothered by hearing it.