Mara He/Him/Mara

My brain is not functioning well right now and that is the pep-talk I need, being reminded this isn’t personal and just the really crap way insurance works here in the USA.

I am disappointed but the hope was for relief not for lifesaving actions, so I will deal, I have had this problem for a while it is not like I can’t survive it.

Quick update, went to the neurologist, she recommended 2 new medications, my cardiologist said no to one and my insurance is trying to not cover the other, I am still full of hope, but need some pep talk. LOL

Hopeful, I did well at piano lessons, I am meeting my new neurologist tomorrow (scared, but I will make it), I think I am sleeping better. Things might be looking up after tomorrow I might get some answers or some relief soon! So my week is hopeful!

This week went from bad, I wasn’t feeling well couldn’t find any energy was getting back into depression, to worse, my favorite all time uncle passed away last night. I am not dealing well. He was one of those weird, quite a lot, offbeat people that kind of got me, no one else liked him much. Now I feel like when I talk about how much I love home it makes me even more of an outsider. Also he is so far away I can’t go to his friends and his circle and be with other people that love him too.

I am new here so I have stuff to share, but my big thing right now is…I have had a lot of unexplained chest pain for a long time, and I have a cardiologist that actually has an explanation and her treatment seems to be working, also it seems to be going a long way to helping my depression in a bonus win.

This didn’t seem the wrong place to do this so here goes.

I am new here…Most people call me Mara, or Bob, there are a few other AKA’s I am known by but those are my favorites so feel free to use those or what ever you want. I answer to a lot of names. This is such an awesome concept. The short version of my background is I am Autistic (1), Gay, and Satanist. I use he/him but gender doesn’t really have a lot of meaning to me, so whatever works. This is my first real day here so I am a bit overwhelmed but I am learning my way around and it is so amazing reading and getting to know the philosophies.

I am not going to write a book here but I do like to talk so please feel free to engage me. I am very politically engaged (I am very left for an American). I do believe that claims require sources, unless they are clearly stated as opinion. I have some diverse hobbies so there is always something to talk about. One last thing, and I know how this sounds, but know I mean it. No mater what, no matter how bad the disagreement, or how far our opinions differ I really do love you! That doesn’t Change.