How about with gaming?

You’re just flat out wrong that you’ll never be pretty. You absolutely can have that but it takes work you’re currently not willing to undertake. There’s a lot you can do to change your appearance that would make a huge difference before even considering stuff like surgery or weight loss which I get the impression you think you need to be happy. Seriously girl, hair care alone would do a lot. And if the little things well within your power aren’t something you’re willing to entertain doing, your problem isn’t actually your appearance. It’s you.

I’ve seen you here and seen your pictures before. This is an unflattering pic of you but no, you don’t look like you think you do either.

So much of your problem isn’t going to change with just hrt. The problem is you hate yourself. You’re probably also conflating beauty with gender. I’ll be direct: in a lot of your pics I’ve seen, you look like a woman. You just also look… terrible. Your hair is a disaster (as an extremely curly haired woman myself, I know it can be difficult to learn how to manage it but managing it once you know how to isn’t. Nor is it difficult to get there, it just takes trial and error. I’m not gonna tell you you should lose weight but it seems like you have a lot of negative feelings about it too. That’s within your control and if you think you’ve tried and failed, you either tried something that wouldn’t work or didn’t try hard enough.

For all of the different ways you hate yourself, I can recommend one of two things: therapy or change it. Or both is better tbh. Change your hair, your clothes, your demeanor. Those will make huge differences. You aren’t the way you think you are but you’re not a model either and you don’t have to be to be a woman

I’ve met people only online so far as well. Dating apps can lead to actual dates sometimes lol. There are also always local meet up groups whether for particular interests or just for general singles. For example, I went to a local LGBT meetup group recently and it seems like the kind of thing where relationships can develop organically from the friends I hope to make there. Taking a perspective of friends first can help with dating prospects too imo

You’re good dude, I only started dating this year and I’m well into my 30s. It’s never too late

Before I came out, I was absolutely convinced that family would never accept me. I was raised in an extremely conservative Christian household and my family still is. My parents struggled a fair bit to accept it but now a year later, they’re pretty good about name and pronouns. My mom was faster than my dad who didn’t really talk to me for a few months after. Extended family was so much better than expected as well and only my grandfather has rejected me, which my dad will never do anything about. He keeps to himself about any anti-trans feelings he has and I know he doesn’t fully accept it but that’s still a much better outcome than I ever expected.

Sometimes things go better than we fear. I suppressed for almost 10 years because of fears of familial rejection but there comes a point that we just can’t deny ourselves anymore. I hope you’re able to transition and keep everything you want but sometimes the pain of not being able to be ourselves is too much no matter how hard we try.

Yay boobs