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  • I haven’t met gates and I agree these days he comes across pleasantly, but perhaps you are not old enough to remember stories of what he was like in his 30s and 40s when Microsoft was younger. He was a tyrant and viscously anticompetitive. As a husband my understanding is that he cheated on his wife (not uncommon I know but still hurtful). He might have become a somewhat better person, maybe, but he certainly wasn’t one when he was making his fortune.


  • The first time I opened vim (it was probably just vi at the time) I couldn’t exit it and had to shut down the computer by holding down the power button (!) to regain control of the machine. It took a while before I tried it again. Ultimately nano felt like it was for kids and emacs felt like an even worse option than vi so I memorized a few sequences, eg :q!, :wq, how to enter the insert mode and how to exit it and simple edit commands like dd and x and this gave me enough proficiency to get by.

    Most all the terminal commands require prior study before they become easy to use. Its because Unix was created by engineers rather than by ui/ux design professionals.


  • You’re a perfectly normal man who has developed a social anxiety disorder. I might say that the cause was that you were traumatized, but if so I’d qualify it by saying it was a “small t” rather than a big one. All trauma has a similar structure to it but it is useful to differentiate between ordinary and extraordinary events that cause it to happen. Anyway, totally and boringly normal. You are not a loser, just a guy whose anxiety and shame have been turned up to 11 and subsequently has become avoidant of relationships.

    Anxiety is perpetuated by avoidance. The more you avoid, the more mysterious and apparently dangerous that which you avoid will appear. The way out of it is to confront your fear by (in this case) asking women you find a bit interesting out for a date. When you do this your anxiety is going to ramp up fiercely. That’s your anxious part trying to “keep you safe” just like when a dog barks at the mailman. The “mailman” (eg., women) aren’t really dangerous but your “dog” thinks they are and so will growl and put you in the mindset to run away. When this happens, tell your anxious part that he is a good boi and a good “watchdog”, but also tell him that he isn’t in possession of the facts (and how could he be? He’s just a “dog”!). Tell him you’ve got this and then follow through with the dating. It will get easier with practice.

    You’ve got this OP. You aren’t weird (just anxious and ashamed like half the population of the world). You just need to push through your anxiety by doing the thing you are afraid to do.