Reducing your dose in order to feel safer is a bad idea. Why not instead focus that anxious energy on educating yourself in a new science hobby? There are many interesting projects involving estrogen!

Actually playing games during dire emotional states throws fuel unto my dissociation/depersonalization/derealization problems; but just mindfully sitting in my favorite place in the Temple of the Moon on a private vanilla WoW server works great for me. The sounds, music, colors, lighting effects, and water create a very zen space that helps me observe my thoughts and feelings without getting so tangled up in them. That kind of presence helps me better understand what is really going on and how it all happened.

If things are merely bad then maybe I’ll play some original Sims 1 or Rimworld on the coziest of settings. So long as there’s no nest of trash around then it’s probably okay. Eufloria in relaxed mode is a lovely RTS game that hasn’t ever caused me any problems.

Hopefully you find your way through this soon!

Wikipedia states that NGO Monitor’s focus is to “End promotion of ‘politically and ideologically motivated anti-Israel agendas’ by certain NGOs,” that they report “on international NGO activity from a pro-Israel perspective,” and that a former online communication editor employed with the group was indefinitely banned for biased editing. Personally I’m more inclined to trust a Wikipedia article with 75 sources unless there is substantial evidence to the contrary.

Yes indeed! You might wish to look into the idea of double consciousness, the dual self-perception experienced by subordinated or colonized groups in an oppressive society. Its a sense of attempting to perceive yourself as both who you know yourself to be and as an oppressive other will perceive you. If you want to smash that noise then you need to learn to stop being ashamed of yourself!

Also, you definitely should be taking the self-defense class appropriate to your gender as violence is very often gendered. There’s a podcast episode of The Gender Rebels about one trans women’s experience taking Krav Maga you might want to give a listen.

Good luck and take care :)

Yeah the boot process is a mess! Debian’s noisy GRUB and unsightly boot text is an obvious and unnecessary paint point for a desktop user but very desirable for server installations. You do have some options though!

Carlo Contavalli apparently has a relatively simple work-around discussed at https://rabexc.org/posts/grub-shush. What I’ve done in the past is rebuilding Ubuntu’s source deb package for GRUB against my Debian system. You can grab it at https://packages.ubuntu.com/source/lunar/grub2. Build instructions can be found here https://unix.stackexchange.com/questions/117503/how-to-compile-a-debian-package-from-source.

The great thing about Debian, Linux, and FLOSS is that you can even automate downloading Debian’s source package when it gets updated, applying the silent patch, applying Ubuntu’s compilation options, compiling the deb, and installing the deb! But yeah why can some package maintainer not provide such as an option in the repository! It’s really an annoyance for many and almost makes me feel like I’m not the type of user the Debian community desires. Like, “Wait… what? You like pretty stuff? GTFO!” Maybe its even true? Hopefully you will enjoy using Debian! Its most preferable to Ubuntu in many ways these days!

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There are occasional forum posts with lab results by transwomen who suspect they may have an unstudied SHBG variation causing a preferential bond to the strong agonist E1 which some claim might generally result in a greater prevalence of the weaker agonist E2 being available to cell estrogen receptors. Some further speculate this claimed SHBG variation to be a possible causal mechanism for the three atypical sexual dimorphisms observed in the brains of transwomen.

Generally such folks say they see better results following a switch from pills to injections and orchiectomy. Please take all of this with a grain of salt. However, it could be good idea to ask your doctor about getting your E1 and E2 levels checked.

Why quit HRT? Those transwomen who came before us made due with far fewer options than we have today. A glass is not perfectly filled to just the right, perfect height or else unenjoyable!

Sorry to disappoint, but I don’t know of anyone else quite like popg0th to recommend. Maybe Ayesha Erotic? There’s Against Me!'s lead singer Laura Jane Grace, which is a fairly well regarded band. Kim Petras you’ve surely heard about right? She was the first solo out trans woman with a number one hit in the US. Celeste’s soundtrack was written by Lena Raine and she also wrote some of Minecraft’s as well. Have you found any others which you like?

Oh and you can usually get a good discount if like you do any modeling online or dance in the area!

That’d be the stores which sell personal lubricants, sex toys, and clothes for any local strippers or social media models in your area. Naturally they’re a great place to find some out till dawn outfits and dangerous heels. Just don’t expect that you and a friend will be allowed into the changing room together!

Target is where I found my first dress. The staff were very friendly and helpful! Later a cis-ter and I went thrifting and found some cute stuff. That store even offered me a job working there :) After a few months I meet another trans woman working in the Target cosmetics and we became friends pretty quick! My city is pretty progressive and even a sanctuary but the state is terribly fascist. Try to be confident when you go and don’t stress too much! Anytime I need a confidence boost I’ll put on some fabulously femme trans music like popgoth’s A-Squad

Extreme Tux Racer is a nice ski racing game but tux the penguin has some aerial maneuverability for long jumps.

Psyche!

If On A Winter’s Night, Four Travelers was a beautiful masterpiece which I just finished. If you enjoy pixel art and pensive point and click narratives then you should check it out!

NEET Girl Date Night will be the next game I play.

Yay!

Wesnoth is a GPL turn-based strategy game from 2005 which has been installed on every computer I’ve owned since its debut. The pixel art, sound effects, music, and gameplay depth are wonderful yet it’s very easy to learn! There are hundreds of campaigns available for solo play and it has both local and online multiplayer. Team based multiplayer with friends against AI’s is a lot of fun and no one gets their feelings hurt if they lose!

Right now I’m playing the white chamber which is a freeware indie horror point and click adventure game from 2005 with a female protagonist. So far it’s doing really well at creating a creepy, suspenseful mystery in a foreboding environment. I haven’t finished it yet but it’s been fun!

As others have mentioned, Neverwinter Nights from 2002 is still unchallenged for community created storytelling and worldbuilding! If you haven’t played it then take a look at what’s available on The Neverwinter Vault and some of the online realms. A Dance with Rogues is my favorite module and would on its own be one of my favorite games!

Thank you to everyone else who’s shared some of their favorites!

twstalker is still working for me.

It would be great to have your community join lemmy either here on blahaj or beehaw! I’d definitely subscribe! The closed registration was what most drew me to beehaw over blahaj, but I’m fairly defensive regarding potential troll exposure and the general unpleasantness of which the internet excels. Raddle could be a nice fit for you all as well. However an examination of the rules there would be well advised for those making the switch. Language frequently used on reddit would run afoul of many. Good luck with your potential move!

I always do it right after bathing and drying my clawfoot tub. The hair should be no longer than 5mm or it will break off instead of pulling out from the follicle! The removed hair will also look different if it was broken instead of pulled out. Its like you can see the base part at the end. Good luck! :)

That sums it right up I think but supposedly its for the worlds creditors who all read your local newspaper to watch for us changing our names just to get away from debts.