A few years ago, mid pandemic, I started collecting ancient coins. I was really passionate about it even thinking about finding ways to make it a small after-hours job or such, but I’ve since run into a few walls and have subsequently lost my drive. For example, I wanted to take very high resolution pictures of the coins and then compose a catalog of sorts, but while I have all the gear that I need (camera with a macro lens) my shots keep coming out wrong and I’ve since kind of given up on the idea altogether.

My entire life is one long succession of passionately started projects that got abandoned either midway or after heavy setbacks. If I ever find one that brings me lasting happiness, I’ll gladly share it, but for now I’m just as much on the lookout as you are.

If anyone would pay to see my 40-yr old shriveled cock or asshole, you bet I would let them.

Physical destruction. It’s the only way to be 100% sure.

I can’t speak for anyone else, but I would. The knowledge that “A” me is out there, somewhere, safe and sound, is uplifting, but it’s still quite chilling to realize you are staying wherever the hell you are. At least we die after enough time has passed because our bodies decay.

If you are the version doing the upload, you’re staying behind. The other “you” pops into existence feeling as if THEY are the original, so from their perspective, it’s as if they won the coin flip.

But the original CANNOT win that coinflip…

I think SOMA made it pretty clear we’re never uploading jack shit, at best we’re making a copy for whom it’ll feel as if they’ve been uploaded, but the original remains behind as well.

I was once banned from some forums for being “too weird to fit in”. It was a forum for a forming WoW guild prior to its launch in 2004. I remember that it somehow crushed my quirky personality, and I became a bit of a drudge as a result.

Although I still game, and sometimes online, I’ve never since tried to actually fit in with any group, and have mostly stopped communicating when gaming at all. No voicechat, only chat, and even that very limited. I guess you could say the single experience changed my outlook and enjoyment of online gaming forever.

I can’t speak for others, but some people… just… don’t. I’m one of them. Perpetual impostor syndrome for almost a full decade at the same company.

I might simply genuinely be incompetent but too nice to fire, I dunno.

Ground News is a pretty good starting point for someone who wants to get into actuality, especially politics. The bias meter just explains for each article whether it’s from a right-, left- or center-leaning organisation, which usually comes with the attached strings you might expect.

By offering the articles from several different sources and clarifying where these sources lie on the left-right axis, you can easily see how some subjects in news are downright manipulated/being lied about by certain publications, just because they omit the most important data or skew it in a way to fit their narrative.

In a profoundly sick society, “normalcy” is being part of the problem.

Such a classic.

Haha right? Not saying this is you but whenever people try to tell me I have impostor syndrome, I’m thinking like “incompetent people exist. I’m just one of them”.

Funny, I’ve been in my current support/devops role for 9 years and every year I wonder more what the hell I’m doing. It somehow seems like I get dumber/lose knowledge/the field expands much more rapidly than my broken mind can keep up with.

I feel like a glorified script kiddie most of the time. I couldn’t program my way out of a wet paper bag if my life depended on it.

I don’t think parent poster meant to espouse nihilism. Rather just acceptance. You can still find meaning in living day to day if worrying about the future becomes debilitating.

I can’t even smoke weed anymore without having a near panic attack.

Funny, it’s the exact opposite for me. I get panic attacks when I run out.

The wages of whistleblowers. It’s incredible anyone is still crazy enough to do it. Better shut up and take it in the ass, you live longer.

Today is ass. Bored out of my mind, bought Helldivers 2 on Steam and somehow the purchase failed. I have 400+ games on there and have never had a problem before.

I know Steam’ll put it right eventually, but that does little to alleviate my current boredom & frustration.

So out of sheer ennui I turned on my work laptop to finish some more support requests (god knows there’s a truly endless amount of those in perpetuity) and apparently a vpn update keeps me from connecting to the corporate network.

Guess I’ll just go to fucking bed at 19.00 then.

There’s more of a chance of the Houthis being completely wiped off the face of the planet before a truce in Gaza. Consequently, they will find out soon why Americans don’t have universal healthcare…

The single most expensive item I own is a gold coin from Imperial Rome, an Aureus of emperor Antoninus Pius. I bought it about three years ago when I was just starting to collect ancient coins. I came across this particular coin on a “regular” gold & silver bullion site in my neck of the woods, for 3K. Not knowing too much about it, I bit the bullet (which is actually an incredibly stupid thing to do, akin to gambling). Turns out it’s very real, mint state, and worth about 2K over what I paid for it right now. I have since continued collecting ancients, especially Romans, and by now know the entire history of Rome and all its emperors in detail. Which again underscores how incredibly stupid it was to buy something so expensive without decent prior research. I was just incredibly lucky that an actual reputed bullion dealer apparantly had come across this coin and got rid of it far under what it was worth.

I don’t expect to be able to repeat this feat, but I’m definitely on the lookout…

I do :(