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The field I work in has a variety of background checks for clients… so for a while until I decide to get new identification documents my deadname will float about… plus my family don’t know about the changing name yet.
The field I work in has a variety of background checks for clients… so for a while until I decide to get new identification documents my deadname will float about… plus my family don’t know about the changing name yet.
Thank you ❤️
Hope it goes well for you!
Have an introductory session with a therapist on Thursday now…
Important context here, my partner is a trans woman herself so understands much of my current headspace. She’s also my dominant in a dynamic, the caging was more linked to that at first. We share a lot of our clothing these days, we’re the same size in that… she’s just taller than me. I’ve been dressing femme for a few months now after initially coming out as fluid… that’s normal to us…
The past week has been quite the mix of highs and lows.
Couple of rough patches with partner.
Having a very affirming experience in Ann Summers, getting my first lingerie under her guidance.
Having my referral to the gender identity clinic confirmed.
I keep my nails short, preference of my partner.
I love having them painted though, and there’s a distinct difference in how I feel when they need redoing, and having them pretty.
Because you’re focused on the visuals from a single user perspective…
It’s not been a good week tbh…
Had a very rough patch with my partner that we’re trying to work through, but it’s tough.
A lot of tears, some minor self harm, emotions on an erratic seesaw.
Weekend plans are some shopping, see my new nephew, some time with my daughters and preparations for vacation next week.
I’ve had a lot of cats as pets over my life to date.
Three of my favourite were all black kitties.
Then there was my dark tortoiseshell who will always have a special place in my heart.
Have a lovely break! ❤️
Very much ups and downs here…
Had my assessment with my private medical cover over my gender identity wtf
Counselling sessions start this week.
Saw friends at the weekend which was nice… apart from the actual bbq being a pretty heavy disaster for my partner and me.
Trying to explain nonbinary to people is so frustrating.
Only slightly more frustrating is not knowing oneself from one moment to the next.
It is a fun game, but if you know what you’re doing it’s so exploitable to get powerful components early.
Back when reddit premium was a thing I was quite happy to sub to that to pay towards costs, and make use of the benefits like X gold to give people per month and increased sub limits etc
Then they messed about with all that and I dropped my sub …
And I haven’t been back since the protests started so 🤷♀️
Mental health is extremely important and often overlooked.
Thank you for everything you’ve done to date.
Take your time and we’ll all be here when you’re ready ❤️🧡💛💚💙💜
Just an FYI on the NOLF bit…
Had a lovely time at a Pride event on Saturday.
Then fell a bit poorly, to the extent my partner just pointed me at the bed and I passed out the previous two nights without raising any fuss.
Was a an enjoyable evening on Friday or drinking with my partner and one of her friends.
Then yesterday was the Edinburgh Pride march which was a heck of a lot of fun.
Previous name will be well known…
Agreed with my leadership that I’d put a quick heads up on Slack today in my team channel that my name has changed to avoid surprising anyone Monday, and to give the weekend for anyone to digest.
Response was positive so here’s hoping no issues as work goes next week.